And the days go by
Like a strand in the wind
In the web that is my own
I begin again
The plan was a beautiful delmonico steak ...MEDIUM RARE
Truffle fries and asparagus with a beautiful cabernet.
Good company...
Good food.
Lots of fun.
Blow out the candles....
A birthday to remember.
I had the reservations...
I had the big swanky suite.
The invitations were out.
I had even picked the dress.
But alas...
It was not meant to be.
So tonight on the eve of my 53rd birthday I can lament
or I can take the time that God has given me to reflect.
And I want to give you a thought...
Everything that is happening right now is happening.
We can't change that.
But it is US that can make the decision on how to SEE and
PERCEIVE what is happening.
Am I sad that my party is cancelled?
YES
Am I bummed that my birthday cruise was cancelled....
YES
Am I upset that I won't see my older daughter for my birthday...
YES
Am I disappointed that I will not see my sisters and parents for Easter.
YES
Can I change it?
NO
Does it do me good to sit and grumble?
NO
Can I pour myself a glass of wine on this night...
On The Edge Of 53
And THINK about how I want to proceed and what
actions I want to take for now and for my future?
YES
And so I shall.
It's my party and I can cry if I want to...
But why would I.
The world is changing before my very eyes and I am
SEEING in ways I never have.
And that is a tremendous blessing.
If you stop and look you just might see some things too.
Ok...I am off to light a candle and RECEIVE what is meant for me to receive
this evening where I have been held in my home ...
In the quiet
Just me, myself and I.
And for the first time in my life I actually think that is pretty good company.
<3
See you tomorrow...
Your 52 year old friend (at least for a few more hours!)
Diane
(This was taken today to PROVE I am alive and I actually put on clothes,
did my hair and put on make up for the first time in a bit)
